Today may have been our Little Lady's hardest day of her life. Well, at least the hardest day she's had since she came into our lives 38 days ago.
And yet, she still managed to put a huge smile on her face and storm through my bedroom door this morning at 6 AM to announce the feast I was going to partake in, in bed.
I'm in awe of her strength.
Most little girls her age are focused on playing hopscotch, Barbies, and dress up. Most of them woke up this morning to the same familiar face they see every morning; they yelled, "Happy Mother's Day!," and then they were off playing again before they even finished the sentence.
Our LL, on the other hand, had to write notes and make breakfast for a parent who isn't her mother. And she seemed genuinely happy to do so, too.
I wish I could take this pain away from her and make everything better in her world. But, I'm not sure what "better" really means for her. Is it better for her to be with us than her parents? Is it better for her to deal with the pain and the distance than to be with them? I really don't know what "better" would be in her situation. I only know that it's a joy to know her and to be near her. She lights up the room and ignites a child-like spark in everyone she meets.
Every day we spend together creates 24 hours of memories we may have to grieve over if (and when) she leaves us.
So, is it "better" for the three of us to experience the joy now and the sorrow later? I'm not sure. But, I am grateful to know the ONE who knows what is better for her. And I'm waiting for Him to write the next part of her story.
LL's quotes:
- "My old church used to have the real cross and it smelled like dead people."
- "This isn't such a graceful ballet."
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About Us:
We began our foster journey in mid-August 2013. We finished our classes in October, had our home study in early January, and we were licensed on February 7, 2014. After seven calls from CPS, we received our first placement, a 7-year-old girl (our Little Lady, or LL for short) on April 3, 2014. Thank you so much for taking the time to read about our journey through the craziness that is foster care. Most importantly, thanks for your prayers, love, and support. We hope to encourage fellow foster/adoptive parents as we document our ups and downs each day.
About Us:
We began our foster journey in mid-August 2013. We finished our classes in October, had our home study in early January, and we were licensed on February 7, 2014. After seven calls from CPS, we received our first placement, a 7-year-old girl (our Little Lady, or LL for short) on April 3, 2014. Thank you so much for taking the time to read about our journey through the craziness that is foster care. Most importantly, thanks for your prayers, love, and support. We hope to encourage fellow foster/adoptive parents as we document our ups and downs each day.
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